It was a long break from blogging. I've been busy with work till I started hating it.
disclaimer: this is a super rant!
there are many factors why I grew to hate my work.
1.) the programming language. - the programming language is such a simple one. Sap abap, and it is a dialogue programming, meaning, it processes the codes on how they are arranged. Top to bottom. It is so simple but I can't make my self digest it. I am so inclined with java, c, html, shell etc. programming language that a simple programming I can't digest? Wtf.
2.) no social life. - because of the busyness and my push to study the language, I push my limits by extemding work hours, going to office on a weekend and as such. Now even planned gatherings and event, I cannot attend.
3.) they started to criticize my priorities. I don't want to elaborate on this part.
4.) in connection to number 4, friends and some things are getting criticized. Even my personal life is being criticized and I was like. Wtf. So i just keep quiet and shut my mouth.
5.) with all these reasons, i am starting to hate my work, and my self because of my inability to cope with it. I don't know how long I can take it but i am hoping that the day when I can't take anymore of this shits won't arrive.
I have a long patience and never in my life wherein I got so angry... Wish that day won't come. Even simple grumpyness from me can send some people away. Getting scared from me.
disclaimer: this is a super rant!
there are many factors why I grew to hate my work.
1.) the programming language. - the programming language is such a simple one. Sap abap, and it is a dialogue programming, meaning, it processes the codes on how they are arranged. Top to bottom. It is so simple but I can't make my self digest it. I am so inclined with java, c, html, shell etc. programming language that a simple programming I can't digest? Wtf.
2.) no social life. - because of the busyness and my push to study the language, I push my limits by extemding work hours, going to office on a weekend and as such. Now even planned gatherings and event, I cannot attend.
3.) they started to criticize my priorities. I don't want to elaborate on this part.
4.) in connection to number 4, friends and some things are getting criticized. Even my personal life is being criticized and I was like. Wtf. So i just keep quiet and shut my mouth.
5.) with all these reasons, i am starting to hate my work, and my self because of my inability to cope with it. I don't know how long I can take it but i am hoping that the day when I can't take anymore of this shits won't arrive.
I have a long patience and never in my life wherein I got so angry... Wish that day won't come. Even simple grumpyness from me can send some people away. Getting scared from me.
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