conscience is bugging me

There are many people in our batch who is better at me when it comes to programming. But how come I was the one left with a project, while the others are there to be benched / or have training.


I don't deserve these things.


I was the one planning on leaving the company, but I was the one being entangled by it.


But I try to request for an off-board. Jokingly, I tried to open if I can request for an off-board (on the project) but I see the disappointment on our current team lead. She expects more from me. I wish I don't frustrate her expectations..